Hadada

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After a very eventful week

the Hubbie

and I

decided

to have a late lunch

at a restaurant

this is not our norm

as

we feel we

can cook better

for cheaper

but

yet

we went for pizza

and a few glasses

of wine

we

got home

before

the storm started

and

in the dog’s

feedbowl

a hadada

was resting.

I took

a towel

gently

lifting it

from the bowl

blood

everywhere

I took it the backyard

noticed

the legs are torn off

the belly ripped open.

I put down a bowl of water

I can’t find

any evidence

of a struggle

with the boerbulls

in the front yard

I went to bed

forgetting

but during

this busy Monday

I remembered

When I got home

the bird died

I’m not sure

if I could’ve saved it

but I am sad

It was not

suppose to happen

#guilt

#whatif

She

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I have found

a spot

to observe her

She

is sitting

on the porch

in a flimsy

red

night dress

no care

about

the nakedness

exposed

legs drawn up

head thrown back

I can only

presume

staring at the stars

with a massive

dog

with a black face

at her feet

drawing

from her cigarette

and I wonder

where did she go?

Mom

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Dear Mom

I wish

I can send you flowers

ever week

I wish

I can hug you

before

you go to sleep

I wish

I can sit with you

everyday

listening

to what

you have to say

although

chances are

I’ve heard it before

I don’t care

it’s you I adore

I love you

even if I’m far away

and not part

of your everyday

Love

always sunny SA

Dear Mom

I wish
I can send you flowers
ever week
I wish
I can hug you
before
you go to sleep
I wish
I can sit with you
everyday
listening
to what
you have to say
although
chances are
I’ve heard it before
I don’t care
it’s you I adore
I love you
even if I’m not that far away
I am not part
of your everyday

Love

Ma se rebel

Road trip

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Day 1

I didn’t take pictures, the land was flat and dry. 5 hours of nothing but cattle , sheep and goats. Oh and two ostriches.

At least there was a Steers in Ventersdorp for coffee and a toasted sandwich for breakfast.

I have also learned that Vryburg is the “Texas of South Africa”

In any case, overnight stop, Kuruman.

What a disappointment. Centre town , is a dump. Locals warn not to go to the tourist attractions without security escort.

Finding dinner was also a challenge. Had a few beers at Rostili watching the Eng v Fij game. It didn’t invite to stay and eat dinner. Eventually had a very basic burger dinner at one of the “country lodges”

I wished I rather spend another hour on the road and stayed in Kathu.

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Notes to self

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16 March 2023

The magnitude of my job

suddenly scares me

17 March

People do

the best for themselves

before

The greater good

17 March

Yellow

Established

Her dominance

Of the alpha

But I think

It’s only

Because

Shakira

Let’s her

17 March

Drunk as skunk

people blame

what they

see

in themselves

18 March

I need

to release me

to be free

but

how

after

a lifetime

conforming

19 March

Life is a roller coaster

it starts slow

and you just go

with the flow

then it it starts

going faster

after

reaching

every peak

people

losing

what

was

important

waiting

for the next

peak

20 March

I want to

get

out

of this

reality

#socialmedia

24 March

Universe

my ancestors

fucked up

I have

fucked up

I ask

humbly ask

don’t let

the sins

of the ancestors

fuck up

my kids

lives

29 June 2023

Question more

21 July 2023

Don’t judge by your perception

3 September 2023

Plan. Read reviews. Don’t just blindly follow the road.

5 October 2024

You really have no idea what others go through.

Be kind.

26 January 2024

I am important too

my time

is mine.

Don’t waste it.

This is very important Curves

you are not “die minste”

forget your fathers advise.

It has stopped your whole being.

April 16 2025

Comparing yourself to others, is stealing your joy.

You are your only comparison 💋

Realities

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I might be
an old hag
in this reality
but
when
I hear
my lover
calling
through
the abyss
of realities
I become
his Syren Song
a Phoenix
blossoming
in his
embrace

In my dream

My lover

Came to me

In a yellow Ferrari

Wearing

a Dick Dastardly

Driving cap

His smile

And the

Twinkle

In his hazel eye

Made me all

Giddy

Inside

He kissed my thigh

And all I can do

Was sigh

Hadida

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The rain

bough

a Hadida

to my garden

I immediately

took a disliking

to her

she sits

on my garden wall

beadyeyed

accusingly

blank

staring at me

I chase

her away

arms flapping

just to

find

het back

on the wall

staring

at me

Amethyst

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Last night

I found

my mom’s

owl amethyst

covered in dust

begging me

to wear it

I had a dream

I gave up

my room

my bed

to the bitch

of a sister in law

then

she asked

me

for my man

to sleep

beside her

because

she is scared

I put

my foot down

and

said no

The man

crumbled

a limp

into

oblivion

and I

was left

on my own

and I wonder

what have

I

started